Salams All..been a while since i have blogged. It being a new islamic year, May this new year brings us closer to Him and make us steadfast in our good deeds to gain His love. Amin!
I have never thought that hijrah year have any much significant. you noe, macam any new year, after flipping the calendar for the past 12 times its time to get another new one. lol!
ok, and i did thought it could be the founding of islam...wrong again!
ok anws, and yes i found the answer at http://ww2.onislam.net/english/shariah/muhammad/reflections/459890-hijrah-still-offers-valuable-lessons.html
Happy reading peeps about the Hjrah year. the lessons which we can try to practice in our daily lives. And appreciate the sacrifice of our beloved prophet for going all out for Allah's religion. May Peace Be Upon Him. Amin
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
and the reason is.....
بِسْمِ ال
"Not that i am angry nor upset over the previous conversation we had few days back.
I am not comfortable with your statement jus now. Hence the short reply and end of conversation. =)
No hard feelings yer..."
"Not that i am angry nor upset over the previous conversation we had few days back.
I am not comfortable with your statement jus now. Hence the short reply and end of conversation. =)
No hard feelings yer..."
Sunday, August 5, 2012
Our Community
بِسْمِ ال
I have just completed my assignment on about the Malay Community. Realized that many of our culture here opposes the teachings of Islam. Ironic isnt it. The Malay community here are generally Muslim-born, how can our culture deviate from Islam itself.
Way before Islam in this part of the region, our ancestors are of a different religion apart of Islam la kan.
The practice they had when they were non-muslim continue to be practiced..but as a culture here.
e.g. weddings, we are encouraged to do a simple wedding. but many of us did them in a lavish way, membazir tu. which is not encouraged in Islam but in culture means to let others know that you are celebrating the once-in-a-lifetine event...so its ok to splurge.
There were many other examples but I guess the most prominent one is the abovementioned.
We might never know that we somehow do practice culture or we display behaviours that are against His teachings as well. Lets sit back and ponder. If its the culture that defined us and make us go against the religion, I believe its safer to discard such culture. Not that i'm saying whatever Malay community culture is against the religion. Whatever we know is against the religion should be abandoned.
Astagfirullah! We are among the wrong-doers. May He forgive us.
If doing the assignment didnt wake me (from some "culture against religion" act), the next sentence did.
Narrated Ibn Abbas radi Allahu Anhu; The Prophet S.A.W said "The most hated person to Allah are three (1) a person who deviates from the right conduct -i.e. an evil doer, in the Haram (santuaries of Makkah and Al-Madinah); (2) a person who wants that the tradition of the pre-islamic period of ignorance should remain in Islam; and (3) a person who seeks to shed somebody's blood w/o any right" (Sahihh Al-Bukhari, Vol 9 Hadith No. 9)
yes, the 2nd, purpled colored attribute woke me up.
Rights, again, I am just trying to be a better practising Muslimah. With such "wake up" call I do hope it will make it more easier for me to remember what is to be practised and what is to be abandoned. InsyaAllah! Amin!
And May many of us realize that there are some culture which we just blindly follow cause its part of culture. Adat. And I do heard of the older generation and new ones too, holding on tight to the adat. something that is more important to grasp hold of is Agama. Yes we are rich in culture..some that didnt oppose to Islam, we can keep that. We just need to filter out those that opposes. Its time to give some thought to it.
I have just completed my assignment on about the Malay Community. Realized that many of our culture here opposes the teachings of Islam. Ironic isnt it. The Malay community here are generally Muslim-born, how can our culture deviate from Islam itself.
Way before Islam in this part of the region, our ancestors are of a different religion apart of Islam la kan.
The practice they had when they were non-muslim continue to be practiced..but as a culture here.
e.g. weddings, we are encouraged to do a simple wedding. but many of us did them in a lavish way, membazir tu. which is not encouraged in Islam but in culture means to let others know that you are celebrating the once-in-a-lifetine event...so its ok to splurge.
There were many other examples but I guess the most prominent one is the abovementioned.
We might never know that we somehow do practice culture or we display behaviours that are against His teachings as well. Lets sit back and ponder. If its the culture that defined us and make us go against the religion, I believe its safer to discard such culture. Not that i'm saying whatever Malay community culture is against the religion. Whatever we know is against the religion should be abandoned.
Astagfirullah! We are among the wrong-doers. May He forgive us.
If doing the assignment didnt wake me (from some "culture against religion" act), the next sentence did.
Narrated Ibn Abbas radi Allahu Anhu; The Prophet S.A.W said "The most hated person to Allah are three (1) a person who deviates from the right conduct -i.e. an evil doer, in the Haram (santuaries of Makkah and Al-Madinah); (2) a person who wants that the tradition of the pre-islamic period of ignorance should remain in Islam; and (3) a person who seeks to shed somebody's blood w/o any right" (Sahihh Al-Bukhari, Vol 9 Hadith No. 9)
yes, the 2nd, purpled colored attribute woke me up.
Rights, again, I am just trying to be a better practising Muslimah. With such "wake up" call I do hope it will make it more easier for me to remember what is to be practised and what is to be abandoned. InsyaAllah! Amin!
And May many of us realize that there are some culture which we just blindly follow cause its part of culture. Adat. And I do heard of the older generation and new ones too, holding on tight to the adat. something that is more important to grasp hold of is Agama. Yes we are rich in culture..some that didnt oppose to Islam, we can keep that. We just need to filter out those that opposes. Its time to give some thought to it.
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
First Terawih
بِسْمِ ال
I wonder if im the only one who complains about unable to concerntrate during prayers in congregation.
The other day after terawih, i was complaining to my friend about it. Now I do wonder if others heard me. Yes, wen it comes to complaining I can be quite loud and oblivious to my surroundings.
Anws doesnt matter, what matter is i find out what went wrong.
Apparently!!! i was too busy grasping hold of the recitations and understanding it. At the same time trying to be in-sync (a step back-ward i mean) with the Imam!
Yepz..check with 3 others abt praying congregation. All 3 people whom I dearly love may I add said since I am a makmum, I will have to act like one. My job is to follow Imam..have my niat in place, recitations such as Al-Fatihah should be sufficient enough. The rest is to follow lead of the Imam. Thats the beauty and advantage of praying together...and also now it seems clear to me why Imam shoulders heavy responsibility. See how many hundreds of us are following him. Such an honour also isnt it.
Ok, anws lets try Praying in Congregation again! :) InsyaAllah, I will get the hang of it.
I wonder if im the only one who complains about unable to concerntrate during prayers in congregation.
The other day after terawih, i was complaining to my friend about it. Now I do wonder if others heard me. Yes, wen it comes to complaining I can be quite loud and oblivious to my surroundings.
Anws doesnt matter, what matter is i find out what went wrong.
Apparently!!! i was too busy grasping hold of the recitations and understanding it. At the same time trying to be in-sync (a step back-ward i mean) with the Imam!
Yepz..check with 3 others abt praying congregation. All 3 people whom I dearly love may I add said since I am a makmum, I will have to act like one. My job is to follow Imam..have my niat in place, recitations such as Al-Fatihah should be sufficient enough. The rest is to follow lead of the Imam. Thats the beauty and advantage of praying together...and also now it seems clear to me why Imam shoulders heavy responsibility. See how many hundreds of us are following him. Such an honour also isnt it.
Ok, anws lets try Praying in Congregation again! :) InsyaAllah, I will get the hang of it.
The Beauty of Quran #2
بِسْمِ ال
When it comes to giving to charity or doing acts to attain His pleasures, we often hear that our fortunes will be multiplied by Him (but the exact no. were not included in the verbal message).
Tadaaa...the answer can be found at Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 261.
Sahih International (Translation):
The example of those who spend their wealth in the way of Allah is like a seed [of grain] which grows seven spikes; in each spike is a hundred grains. And Allah multiplies [His reward] for whom He wills. And Allah is all-Encompassing and Knowing.
MasyaAllah! Based on simple calculations and understanding thats 700x la!
Spent SG1,000 here for His way and you will get 700,000 amount of pahala/some in monetary form/ our "token to be presented" for Judgement Day. Wohhhooo!!! Look at those digits! Imagine that amount in our bank...tak ke sedap mata memandang, mengukir senyuman. Well, even if we dont get all the amount here in Dunya. InsyaAllah, during Judgement Day we will be glad that our Deeds statement account states such amount. Tokens to enter Jannah! InsyaAllah!
Ok, maybe my example is too huge la kan. No matter how big or small the contribution is, the returns are HUGE! This is better den any interest rate you can get.
So lets try to do our bit in support of the ones in need and also to help distribute the wealth that He has provided us. (we are being rewarded for giving something that isnt ours to begin with. whao!). May He guide us all and with the charity it helps purify ourselves, the wealth we have gained and also our soul. Amin! :)
with that, please be reminded to check on your zakat payment.
As always its actually a note to self actually.
Have a blessed Ramadan All.
When it comes to giving to charity or doing acts to attain His pleasures, we often hear that our fortunes will be multiplied by Him (but the exact no. were not included in the verbal message).
Tadaaa...the answer can be found at Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 261.
Sahih International (Translation):
The example of those who spend their wealth in the way of Allah is like a seed [of grain] which grows seven spikes; in each spike is a hundred grains. And Allah multiplies [His reward] for whom He wills. And Allah is all-Encompassing and Knowing.
MasyaAllah! Based on simple calculations and understanding thats 700x la!
Spent SG1,000 here for His way and you will get 700,000 amount of pahala/some in monetary form/ our "token to be presented" for Judgement Day. Wohhhooo!!! Look at those digits! Imagine that amount in our bank...tak ke sedap mata memandang, mengukir senyuman. Well, even if we dont get all the amount here in Dunya. InsyaAllah, during Judgement Day we will be glad that our Deeds statement account states such amount. Tokens to enter Jannah! InsyaAllah!
Ok, maybe my example is too huge la kan. No matter how big or small the contribution is, the returns are HUGE! This is better den any interest rate you can get.
So lets try to do our bit in support of the ones in need and also to help distribute the wealth that He has provided us. (we are being rewarded for giving something that isnt ours to begin with. whao!). May He guide us all and with the charity it helps purify ourselves, the wealth we have gained and also our soul. Amin! :)
with that, please be reminded to check on your zakat payment.
As always its actually a note to self actually.
Have a blessed Ramadan All.
Sunday, July 22, 2012
The Beauty of Quran #1
بِسْمِ ال
Ramadan Kareem (Generous month of Ramadan) is here! Mubarak Ramadan to many of us who are given another opportunity to gain His blessings and His rewards during this holy.
May each good deeds of ours are accepted. Amin!
And most importantly, May He give us the strength and encouragement to gain His rewards throughtout this month and make us a better muslim. Amin!
2 nights back, I was reading the Quran translation (by Dr MuhdTaqi-ud-Din Al-Hilah & Dr Muhd Muhsin Khan) of Surah Al -Baqarah (The Cow).
Ayat 42 from this Surah caught my attention. Before we jump straight to the ayat, lets look at the ayat before. To have a better undertsanding of the next ayat.
Ayat 41:
And, believe in what I have sent down (this Quran), confirming that which is with you (the Taurat) and the Injeel (Gospel), and be not the first to disbelieve therein, and buy not with My Verses (the Taurat and the Gospel) a small price and Fear Me and Me Alone.
Ayat 42:
And mix not truth with the falsehood, nor conceal the truth (i.e. Muhammad S.A.W is Allah's Messenger and his qualities are written in your Scriptures, the Taurat and Injeel, while you know the truth.
Nabi Muhammad S.A.W and his qualities are "revealed" on the authentic version of Taurat and Injeel! MasyaAllah!
Interesting is'nt it! The Prophets Nabi Musa A.S. (Moses) and Nabi Isa A.S. (Jesus) revealed to their own communities (by His Grace) on the arrival of Nabi Muhammad S.A.W.
However sad to say that on a certain forum on the web, some claimed that the verse in Injeel (John 14:30) was referring to a false prophet.
May Allah forgive them and lead them to the right path.
On the forum, it also states that Nabi Isa A.S (Jesus) will be brought back and "conquer" this world. Which interestingly, I read somewhere that Nabi Isa A.S will be brought to defeat Dajjal. I have not read the verse on this in the Quran yet. So lets not touch on it yet.
Wonder what other interesting discoveryies awaits for me from the Quran. Heee! Masya'Allah!
Ramadan Kareem (Generous month of Ramadan) is here! Mubarak Ramadan to many of us who are given another opportunity to gain His blessings and His rewards during this holy.
May each good deeds of ours are accepted. Amin!
And most importantly, May He give us the strength and encouragement to gain His rewards throughtout this month and make us a better muslim. Amin!
2 nights back, I was reading the Quran translation (by Dr MuhdTaqi-ud-Din Al-Hilah & Dr Muhd Muhsin Khan) of Surah Al -Baqarah (The Cow).
Ayat 42 from this Surah caught my attention. Before we jump straight to the ayat, lets look at the ayat before. To have a better undertsanding of the next ayat.
Ayat 41:
And, believe in what I have sent down (this Quran), confirming that which is with you (the Taurat) and the Injeel (Gospel), and be not the first to disbelieve therein, and buy not with My Verses (the Taurat and the Gospel) a small price and Fear Me and Me Alone.
Ayat 42:
And mix not truth with the falsehood, nor conceal the truth (i.e. Muhammad S.A.W is Allah's Messenger and his qualities are written in your Scriptures, the Taurat and Injeel, while you know the truth.
Nabi Muhammad S.A.W and his qualities are "revealed" on the authentic version of Taurat and Injeel! MasyaAllah!
In Torah
The Lord said to me [Moses]: ‘What they say is good. I will raise up for them a Prophet like you among their brothers; I will put My words in his mouth, and he will tell them everything I command him. If anyone does not listen to My words that the Prophet speaks in My Name, I will Myself call him to account.’ (Deuteronomy, 18.17-9)
website: http://www.thewaytotruth.org/prophetmuhammad/proofs.html
The Lord said to me [Moses]: ‘What they say is good. I will raise up for them a Prophet like you among their brothers; I will put My words in his mouth, and he will tell them everything I command him. If anyone does not listen to My words that the Prophet speaks in My Name, I will Myself call him to account.’ (Deuteronomy, 18.17-9)
website: http://www.thewaytotruth.org/prophetmuhammad/proofs.html
‘O Moses, surely I will raise up for them a Prophet like you,
from among their brothers (that is, from among the children of Ishmael); I will
put my Word in his mouth, and he will tell them everything I command him. If
anyone does not listen to my words that the prophet speaks in my name, I Myself
will call him to account.’ (Deuteronomy, 18:18-19.)
Moses said: ‘O my Lord, I have found in the Torah a community,
as the best of the communities, that will be raised for (the benefit) of mankind; they enjoin the good and forbid the evil, and they believe in God. Let
it be my community!’ (God) said: ‘That is the community of Muhammad.’3
website: http://www.thewaytotruth.org/prophetmuhammad/proofs.html
In
Injeel
The Prophet who will come after Jesus is referred to as ‘the Master of the world’ in several places in the Gospels.
The Prophet who will come after Jesus is referred to as ‘the Master of the world’ in several places in the Gospels.
Hereafter I will not talk much
with you: for the prince of this world cometh, and hath nothing in me. (John,
14:30)
When Paraklit comes - the Spirit of truth - who comes from the
Father, he will testify about me. (John, 15.26)
I have much more to say to you, more than you can now bear. But when he, the Spirit of Truth comes, he will guide you into all truth. He will not speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come. He will bring glory to me by taking what is mine and making it known to you (John 16. 12-14)
Interesting is'nt it! The Prophets Nabi Musa A.S. (Moses) and Nabi Isa A.S. (Jesus) revealed to their own communities (by His Grace) on the arrival of Nabi Muhammad S.A.W.
However sad to say that on a certain forum on the web, some claimed that the verse in Injeel (John 14:30) was referring to a false prophet.
May Allah forgive them and lead them to the right path.
On the forum, it also states that Nabi Isa A.S (Jesus) will be brought back and "conquer" this world. Which interestingly, I read somewhere that Nabi Isa A.S will be brought to defeat Dajjal. I have not read the verse on this in the Quran yet. So lets not touch on it yet.
Wonder what other interesting discoveryies awaits for me from the Quran. Heee! Masya'Allah!
Friday, July 6, 2012
The long forgotten pleasure
بِسْمِ ال
Yesterday Kak Erni & I went to catch a monologue by a scripwriter (whom i used to know her as only an actress), Haryani Othman.
It was my first time watching a single performaner acting multiple characters.
most of the time, we are only able to watch an actor/ actress acting multiple characters on the silverscreen (y is it called silverscreen btw?)
back to the play, it was simple layout from the (single) cast, to the props (2 chairs, table with cookies and jars and tray and ......), simple lighting and the lepak-habis dia(mono)logue.
Hani had to change character interchangablely. within seconds. expressions change, tone of voice. within seconds.
i take a while to change my mood from the worried headless "itik" to a gracious "swan" .
back to the play,now, thats what i call ART!
expressions.... :) whaoz! she did great. awesome. alot of parts i could easily relate or "feel" her.
ok, im not a good critic/ someone who gives good or membina opinions.
basically, i love the simplicity of the play yet the intense emotions that were presented.
it just occured to me that actually i love going to plays, musicals. how much i missed them.
the long forgotten pleasure.
Yesterday Kak Erni & I went to catch a monologue by a scripwriter (whom i used to know her as only an actress), Haryani Othman.
It was my first time watching a single performaner acting multiple characters.
most of the time, we are only able to watch an actor/ actress acting multiple characters on the silverscreen (y is it called silverscreen btw?)
back to the play, it was simple layout from the (single) cast, to the props (2 chairs, table with cookies and jars and tray and ......), simple lighting and the lepak-habis dia(mono)logue.
Hani had to change character interchangablely. within seconds. expressions change, tone of voice. within seconds.
i take a while to change my mood from the worried headless "itik" to a gracious "swan" .
back to the play,now, thats what i call ART!
expressions.... :) whaoz! she did great. awesome. alot of parts i could easily relate or "feel" her.
ok, im not a good critic/ someone who gives good or membina opinions.
basically, i love the simplicity of the play yet the intense emotions that were presented.
it just occured to me that actually i love going to plays, musicals. how much i missed them.
the long forgotten pleasure.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
i cant think of a proper, suitable title for this post
بِسْمِ ال
Death. Accidents. Illness. Mistreated
I have been staring, typing and deleting and re-typing this first sentence for the past 7mins.
I have no idea how to begin blogging abt this without having much reservations about my thoughts and feelings yet I dun wish to sound like im gloatting over the misfortunes that are my close colleagues and acquaintance went and are going through.
Death: A close colleague of mine, a great sweet kakak whom I consider as the kelakar-seram kakak, lost her mom last Wednesday. It was considered as a sudden death as no one expected it. All her illness was considered as normal old age illness.
As I was talking to her yesterday, she did mentioned that her mom's passing hasnt really get into her yet. She's slightly affected but hasnt felt the impact yet.
There are times when she was doing something and thought about her mom...and then she realized that her mom is no longer ard.
An acquaintance lost her 9-year old son in a road accident in Aussie. Heard the news on radio this morning which then a close fren of mine texted and informed me that someone I knew is involved in the road accident.
A family trip which ended up tragic.
I have always regarded her as a strong lady eversince I met her. Strong willed and firm with her grounds and beliefs. Close-knitted family. The accident also involved her husband and 3 other children. Her husband and one of her child are in critical condition.
Illness and Mistreated: Another close collegue is diagnosed with somekind of illness that weakens her legs and made her lose appetite. Losing her leg strength bit by bit made her feel useless cause she will always need to depend on others and be next to her in case she might fall. Someone who used to be so independant suddenly has to depend on others makes her feel more sorry for herself. hates it!, she said.
Condition at home, being verbal abuse by the in-law made it worst.
Ina Lillahi Wa Ina Ilayhi Raajioon
May Allah grant strength and will power to these incredible ladies to pull through the rough times. May the misfortunes bring them closer to Him.
When such incidents inflicted people that we know or have known, it just dawn on us how fortunate we are, right now. And how great He is. The happiness that we are experiencing right now, be it monetary, relationships, health fortunes will surely be gone as He willed.
As I read back the paragraph before this, i realize too that all along i noe how fortunate i am but i dont really appreciate it. how i've taken advantage of its existance.
=(
Do i have to lose it in order to count it as a blessing?
Death. Accidents. Illness. Mistreated
I have been staring, typing and deleting and re-typing this first sentence for the past 7mins.
I have no idea how to begin blogging abt this without having much reservations about my thoughts and feelings yet I dun wish to sound like im gloatting over the misfortunes that are my close colleagues and acquaintance went and are going through.
Death: A close colleague of mine, a great sweet kakak whom I consider as the kelakar-seram kakak, lost her mom last Wednesday. It was considered as a sudden death as no one expected it. All her illness was considered as normal old age illness.
As I was talking to her yesterday, she did mentioned that her mom's passing hasnt really get into her yet. She's slightly affected but hasnt felt the impact yet.
There are times when she was doing something and thought about her mom...and then she realized that her mom is no longer ard.
An acquaintance lost her 9-year old son in a road accident in Aussie. Heard the news on radio this morning which then a close fren of mine texted and informed me that someone I knew is involved in the road accident.
A family trip which ended up tragic.
I have always regarded her as a strong lady eversince I met her. Strong willed and firm with her grounds and beliefs. Close-knitted family. The accident also involved her husband and 3 other children. Her husband and one of her child are in critical condition.
Illness and Mistreated: Another close collegue is diagnosed with somekind of illness that weakens her legs and made her lose appetite. Losing her leg strength bit by bit made her feel useless cause she will always need to depend on others and be next to her in case she might fall. Someone who used to be so independant suddenly has to depend on others makes her feel more sorry for herself. hates it!, she said.
Condition at home, being verbal abuse by the in-law made it worst.
Ina Lillahi Wa Ina Ilayhi Raajioon
May Allah grant strength and will power to these incredible ladies to pull through the rough times. May the misfortunes bring them closer to Him.
When such incidents inflicted people that we know or have known, it just dawn on us how fortunate we are, right now. And how great He is. The happiness that we are experiencing right now, be it monetary, relationships, health fortunes will surely be gone as He willed.
As I read back the paragraph before this, i realize too that all along i noe how fortunate i am but i dont really appreciate it. how i've taken advantage of its existance.
=(
Do i have to lose it in order to count it as a blessing?
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Sunday, June 3, 2012
Larger than Life Itself
بِسْمِ ال
Who are we to question His forgiving attributes. Who are we to doubt it.
May He forgive me, we and us if we ever thought of "am I forgiven?"
What are repeated ones? Is it forgiven as well?
In surah Ta-Ha (20:44), Allah instructed Moses (Musa A.S) and Aaron (Haron A.S) to speak mildly to Pharaoh(Firaun). He gave Pharaoh (someone who is known to be the most evil person on earth....and regarded himself as god? - im not too sure if he did regarded himself as god) chance to repent. Ayat as below.
What is our sins compared to his? we fail to greet one another...again. we happened to speak about another sister/brother...(initially the niat was to just vent out frustration. but it turned to be a gossip session...argh!). we shouted or showed displeasure....(nie either PMS or case of tak-cukup-tidur).
Allah's grace is larger that what we can possibly image!
we sinned, we seek for forgiveness, and try not to commit the same mistake.
if not commiting seems impossible now, then we can try to reduce the degree and the intensity of the committed sin.
Rights, main point is do not despair on His mercy. Why give up on ourselves when He havent!
(note to self)
What I have written above are just some points (based on my human(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4BNIfki5qdw
| Faqoola lahu qawlan layyinanlaAAallahu yatathakkaru aw
yakhsha "But speak to him midly; perhaps he may take warning or fear (Allah)"  | |
Saturday, May 12, 2012
Limitations
بِسْمِ الِّة
All of us have limitations, dont we. Limits to how much we can perform or control over matters. we are humans afterall.
I have been feeling tired lately due to work.
and the thought that my exams are around the corner yet work takes too much of my energy to study at night.
There were days when I felt that I didnt have sufficient sleep/ rest.
The tiredness took a toll on me on last Friday.
I was more cranky, more sensitive. I even felt hurt wen Tok Mat answered my question in his "do-not-bother-me" tone and his bochup gestures (yes, at times he is like that. spot the similarities between me and him :P). anws, i was so hurted that I literally cried wen he tried to "pacify" me. His pacify is by asking AniQ to disturb me "kacau auntie AniQ tu yg tgh merajuk". free flow of tears laaa. there I was, streams of crsytal clear tears flowed for about 5mins, in front of AniQ and my 2 younger sisters.
ok, anyways, whats my objective of writing this entry.
Well, what im trying to simply say is that, though part of my course at SIM did taught me about socioemotion and the self-control, I am ordinary human. simply ordinary with no special skills nor great knowledge, i do have my break-down days. do not expect me, in fact anyone, to be 100% of what we have learnt...everyday. please consider that most people have bad days. What we've learnt takes more den just cultivating it in our own daily lives.
Do not expect much from others. We are humans with limitations. And we wont have gotten this "far" w/o His guidance nor help.
Surah Al-Kahf (18:43)
"he had no one besides God to help him, nor could he himself achieve any success"
All of us have limitations, dont we. Limits to how much we can perform or control over matters. we are humans afterall.
I have been feeling tired lately due to work.
and the thought that my exams are around the corner yet work takes too much of my energy to study at night.
There were days when I felt that I didnt have sufficient sleep/ rest.
The tiredness took a toll on me on last Friday.
I was more cranky, more sensitive. I even felt hurt wen Tok Mat answered my question in his "do-not-bother-me" tone and his bochup gestures (yes, at times he is like that. spot the similarities between me and him :P). anws, i was so hurted that I literally cried wen he tried to "pacify" me. His pacify is by asking AniQ to disturb me "kacau auntie AniQ tu yg tgh merajuk". free flow of tears laaa. there I was, streams of crsytal clear tears flowed for about 5mins, in front of AniQ and my 2 younger sisters.
ok, anyways, whats my objective of writing this entry.
Well, what im trying to simply say is that, though part of my course at SIM did taught me about socioemotion and the self-control, I am ordinary human. simply ordinary with no special skills nor great knowledge, i do have my break-down days. do not expect me, in fact anyone, to be 100% of what we have learnt...everyday. please consider that most people have bad days. What we've learnt takes more den just cultivating it in our own daily lives.
Do not expect much from others. We are humans with limitations. And we wont have gotten this "far" w/o His guidance nor help.
Surah Al-Kahf (18:43)
"he had no one besides God to help him, nor could he himself achieve any success"
a highly recommended video
بِسْمِ الِّة
I hope I've gotten the spelling of Bismillah right. I was just testing out the arabic online keyboard which I found guess where..online lorz. :P
anyways do let me know if the spelling is wrong aite. I have checked online and the Quran on the spelling, but I may have gotten it wrong.
In my previous entry in regards to hijab, one of my frequent questions was .."what if my character/ behaviour doesnt reflects good on Islam". Think I didnt mentioned that another top doubt I had (hopefully it will still remain as past tensed, insyaAllah) was "what if I found out that its not my time yet. and remove the hijab".
MasyaAllah, with His grace, a talk by Wardinah Saffiyah enlightened me. It can be found at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yh8FWDNBrTk (Struggling to be a better msulimah everyday)
Quran, is her guidance.
Like every skills, it has to be horn and like what the spore government has been saying and a campaign that is highly supported, lifelong learning.
We need to constantly seek for knowledge in Islam. Learn about it and understand the Quran.
Constant questioning, analyze and be critical. Look for answers. Masya'Allah!
With the acquired knowledge and discovery, insyaAllah, it will get us closer to Him. Make us desire more for His love. and with His grace, the good deeds and donning on the proper hijab will be of nature to us.
Do not remain stagnant. Like all love, it has to be nurtured, watered and light from the sun daily,
Lets treat our eeman as a plantation. mine is padi fields since i like the view of the fields at Bandung. (I believe its padi fields)
Highly recommend you to watch the video.
"semoga kita tidak leka dlm perjalanan ini dan sentiasa ber-rendah diri. Amin"
I hope I've gotten the spelling of Bismillah right. I was just testing out the arabic online keyboard which I found guess where..online lorz. :P
anyways do let me know if the spelling is wrong aite. I have checked online and the Quran on the spelling, but I may have gotten it wrong.
In my previous entry in regards to hijab, one of my frequent questions was .."what if my character/ behaviour doesnt reflects good on Islam". Think I didnt mentioned that another top doubt I had (hopefully it will still remain as past tensed, insyaAllah) was "what if I found out that its not my time yet. and remove the hijab".
MasyaAllah, with His grace, a talk by Wardinah Saffiyah enlightened me. It can be found at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yh8FWDNBrTk (Struggling to be a better msulimah everyday)
Quran, is her guidance.
Like every skills, it has to be horn and like what the spore government has been saying and a campaign that is highly supported, lifelong learning.
We need to constantly seek for knowledge in Islam. Learn about it and understand the Quran.
Constant questioning, analyze and be critical. Look for answers. Masya'Allah!
With the acquired knowledge and discovery, insyaAllah, it will get us closer to Him. Make us desire more for His love. and with His grace, the good deeds and donning on the proper hijab will be of nature to us.
Do not remain stagnant. Like all love, it has to be nurtured, watered and light from the sun daily,
Lets treat our eeman as a plantation. mine is padi fields since i like the view of the fields at Bandung. (I believe its padi fields)
Highly recommend you to watch the video.
"semoga kita tidak leka dlm perjalanan ini dan sentiasa ber-rendah diri. Amin"
Saturday, May 5, 2012
The Ultimate Checklist
As I sat on the prayer mat after my Isyak prayers yesterday, I began questioning myself on my faith.
The ups-and-downs occurs too often. One day I can be at the peak (I felt that way) but the next moment (literally, the very next moment), there I was at the lowest. Ironic ek!
Anyways, I was pondering yesterday. I felt that my faith should at least be somewhat dip just a level or two then gradually increases. And not a process whereby faith was gradually increasing then falls right back to where I began.
As I was pondering, suddenly (with His grace), the mind just drifted to the interior of a masjid (a fewdays ago, a friend of mine forwarded an email which has 360degrees view of a masjid). The pillars then became the centre of my attention. And unknowingly, I started asking myself about the Pillars of Faith and Pillars of Islam. At times, I get the Pillars mixed up. Had the urge to check it out online.
After verifying my "knowledge" with the web, I realized that my Pillars wasnt strong enough and one pillar was non-existance. May Allah forgive me.
Lets not forget the Pillars of Islam and Faith. Keep it as a checklist to renew ourselves.
For the benefit of others and myself, here's the list.
Pillars of Faith
The ups-and-downs occurs too often. One day I can be at the peak (I felt that way) but the next moment (literally, the very next moment), there I was at the lowest. Ironic ek!
Anyways, I was pondering yesterday. I felt that my faith should at least be somewhat dip just a level or two then gradually increases. And not a process whereby faith was gradually increasing then falls right back to where I began.
As I was pondering, suddenly (with His grace), the mind just drifted to the interior of a masjid (a fewdays ago, a friend of mine forwarded an email which has 360degrees view of a masjid). The pillars then became the centre of my attention. And unknowingly, I started asking myself about the Pillars of Faith and Pillars of Islam. At times, I get the Pillars mixed up. Had the urge to check it out online.
After verifying my "knowledge" with the web, I realized that my Pillars wasnt strong enough and one pillar was non-existance. May Allah forgive me.
Lets not forget the Pillars of Islam and Faith. Keep it as a checklist to renew ourselves.
For the benefit of others and myself, here's the list.
Pillars of Faith
- Believe in Allah
- Believe in Angels
- Believe in Allah's Revealed Books
- Believe in Prophets and His Messengers
- Believe in Judgement Day
- Believe in Qadar (Divine Predestination) (Allahu'alam= Only Allah knows best)
- Sahadah
- Prayers
- Alms (zakat)
- Fasting in the month of Ramadan
- Hajj
Friday, May 4, 2012
Well Guided Ceiling
Cited from the Nobel Quran
(The Prophets 21:32)
(The Prophets 21:32)
We made the sky above them as a well-guarded ceiling, but they have neglected the evidence (of Our existence) therein
Saturday, April 28, 2012
The Much Needed Strength
I dont have the strength to talk about the bad past experience w/o feeling angry towards the person involved.
It still bring much tears. As much as I know it was tailored-made for me by Him, pre-planned to bring me where I am today.
The words, the actions....have deeply hurted me.
We are still friends but am I faking it? on the pretext that I have forgive and forget.
All along, I've been lying to myself and everyone else????
Right now, I'm hurted, confused and sad at the same time.
Hurted thinking about the past experience. Confused by my own actions now and sad that I am still angry about it (I thought I was over it)
May Allah give me the strength pull this through.
I want to be able to smile and be thankful of the hurted experience. To acknowledge that IT has brought me closer to Him. And to forgive him, sincerely. Amin!!!
It still bring much tears. As much as I know it was tailored-made for me by Him, pre-planned to bring me where I am today.
The words, the actions....have deeply hurted me.
We are still friends but am I faking it? on the pretext that I have forgive and forget.
All along, I've been lying to myself and everyone else????
Right now, I'm hurted, confused and sad at the same time.
Hurted thinking about the past experience. Confused by my own actions now and sad that I am still angry about it (I thought I was over it)
May Allah give me the strength pull this through.
I want to be able to smile and be thankful of the hurted experience. To acknowledge that IT has brought me closer to Him. And to forgive him, sincerely. Amin!!!
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Unseen Blessings
For some reason, last night I was curious to find out the duties and responsibilities of malaikat-malaikat. To be more precise, Malaikat Mikhail.
SubhanAllah! not only are they (I was once told that the name is just like a group name. exact number of them, only He knows. Maybe its written in the Quran or in Hadith but I have yet to come across any..i've not done much reading i may add) in charge of distributing sustenance to mankind, animals, plants and other living things but also seek forgiveness (istighfar) to Allah S.W.T. for the dutiful ones who have sinned.
Are we not capable of realizing it when we have sinned and seek our own forgiveness?
We might not have met them (or maybe we have..we just do not know) but there they are helping us to.
I remember briefly reading an article few years back on Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. About him crying. He cried for us, his umat, who will be the first to be resurrected during Judgement Day. I don't quite recall if he cried cause many of us are the wrongdoers and bound to face Allah's punishment or was there other reasons as well?
Rights, I think my entry here is quite weak. But MasyaAllah, I am just trying to share something that smitten my heart and made me wonder what have I done to deserve such caring Prophet and Angel. Thank Him for bestowing us with such blessings. May Allah forgive us all. Amin!
SubhanAllah! not only are they (I was once told that the name is just like a group name. exact number of them, only He knows. Maybe its written in the Quran or in Hadith but I have yet to come across any..i've not done much reading i may add) in charge of distributing sustenance to mankind, animals, plants and other living things but also seek forgiveness (istighfar) to Allah S.W.T. for the dutiful ones who have sinned.
Are we not capable of realizing it when we have sinned and seek our own forgiveness?
We might not have met them (or maybe we have..we just do not know) but there they are helping us to.
I remember briefly reading an article few years back on Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. About him crying. He cried for us, his umat, who will be the first to be resurrected during Judgement Day. I don't quite recall if he cried cause many of us are the wrongdoers and bound to face Allah's punishment or was there other reasons as well?
Rights, I think my entry here is quite weak. But MasyaAllah, I am just trying to share something that smitten my heart and made me wonder what have I done to deserve such caring Prophet and Angel. Thank Him for bestowing us with such blessings. May Allah forgive us all. Amin!
Sunday, April 8, 2012
a (good) friend indeed
-uncut, unedited, raw entry-
Few days ago, i met a long time good friend at the plaza, for my-so-called-dinner.
we were quite amazed that our friendship is coming to its 10th year (...next yr). how time flies.
so there he was talking about his first few "dates" with me a few years back.
Got to know him from my attachment stint. Back then, I dont recall talking much to him. Nevertheless, we started contacting each other only after the stint ended. I dont know how he get hold of my hp no. back then. but yah!
i bet im qiute hostile towards him even after the attachment ended. our "dates" back then was a horrible experience for him. He mentioned about my "pouty" moments and how I could just walk away from him. ouh dear!! part nie, memang la guilty. i always react that way when the anxiety gets the better of me.
nevertheless, even with the bad experiences he went through, i dont recall him ever stopped messaging nor asking me out. it amazes me how patient he was towards me. he didnt even tried to change me (by repremanding me), he merely continued being the good person he is. and i slowly open up to him. :) MasyaAllah!
And im glad that we are still good close friends despite the fact that he will be getting hitched soon. Here's to our platonic friendship brader!
That nite, i thought it over. there are many good friends of mine who were patient enuf to allow me to slowly take my time to overcome my weakness. who are not affected by my weird personality. they continued to care. Its a blessing to have them in my life. To know that many cared for me genuinely. =)
Few days ago, i met a long time good friend at the plaza, for my-so-called-dinner.
we were quite amazed that our friendship is coming to its 10th year (...next yr). how time flies.
so there he was talking about his first few "dates" with me a few years back.
Got to know him from my attachment stint. Back then, I dont recall talking much to him. Nevertheless, we started contacting each other only after the stint ended. I dont know how he get hold of my hp no. back then. but yah!
i bet im qiute hostile towards him even after the attachment ended. our "dates" back then was a horrible experience for him. He mentioned about my "pouty" moments and how I could just walk away from him. ouh dear!! part nie, memang la guilty. i always react that way when the anxiety gets the better of me.
nevertheless, even with the bad experiences he went through, i dont recall him ever stopped messaging nor asking me out. it amazes me how patient he was towards me. he didnt even tried to change me (by repremanding me), he merely continued being the good person he is. and i slowly open up to him. :) MasyaAllah!
And im glad that we are still good close friends despite the fact that he will be getting hitched soon. Here's to our platonic friendship brader!
That nite, i thought it over. there are many good friends of mine who were patient enuf to allow me to slowly take my time to overcome my weakness. who are not affected by my weird personality. they continued to care. Its a blessing to have them in my life. To know that many cared for me genuinely. =)
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Friday, March 9, 2012
conflict of interest
today is the day..when im staring at the screen, hav the urge to surf the net, update the blog, check FB and stay connected virtually. but today is also the day when I am clueless "what do I wanna search on the net, what am I interested to talk about on my blog, whose/ what statues on FB".
u ever experience that before?
u ever experience that before?
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
what was I thinking?
lil_zoid; putriserunding; adik
what was i thinking when i "named" mysef as above.
the above are either my email, tweet a/c names.
lil_zoid came about wen I was in sec school. i was watching the zoids cartoon.
while watching it, i was busy creating my first email a/c.
Putriserunding...i love pulut serunding for a fact. serunding especially!!!
and i loved reading putriberendam (its a food critic blogger) entries. dan gambung kan kedua2nya.
putriserunding. ahahah!!
adik, ouh well! i was called adik..one-upon-a-time.
now, the mom no longer calls me tat. she calls me, enje (she used to say tat it means manja-or was it juz in my imagination that she said it). the rest calls me...goli (gulps!) (this one confirm was from my elder sis. she said it describe my big "beautiful" eyes. ok, beautiful was added by yours truly la kan).
so there, thats where my "names" came from. ;)
what was i thinking when i "named" mysef as above.
the above are either my email, tweet a/c names.
lil_zoid came about wen I was in sec school. i was watching the zoids cartoon.
while watching it, i was busy creating my first email a/c.
Putriserunding...i love pulut serunding for a fact. serunding especially!!!
and i loved reading putriberendam (its a food critic blogger) entries. dan gambung kan kedua2nya.
putriserunding. ahahah!!
adik, ouh well! i was called adik..one-upon-a-time.
now, the mom no longer calls me tat. she calls me, enje (she used to say tat it means manja-or was it juz in my imagination that she said it). the rest calls me...goli (gulps!) (this one confirm was from my elder sis. she said it describe my big "beautiful" eyes. ok, beautiful was added by yours truly la kan).
so there, thats where my "names" came from. ;)
Sunday, February 26, 2012
monday thoughts
"Assalamualaikum Ustazah"
ok, not the first time i've been called ustazah. initially i thought ustazah is more of a female teacher who teaches Islamic Teachings. its not lorz..its teacher. ahaha!
aniwaes awat la panggil saya teacher ek. im far from that.
ok rites, the abovementioned wasnt my intended topic.
i wana talk about defining one as religious.
its difficult for me to define & personally i believe it takes more than juz a cert and appropriate manners (towards people) to define as religious.
its not defined by fulfilling 5 obligatory prayers. Prayers makes us muslim not religious (cited from a tweet). true enough.
One donning on hijab, is not necessarily someone who is religious as well. For a fact, im not even near that. i dun even noe if the way i don on it meets his standard. the obligatory prayers, I have difficult waking up for Subuh esp on weekends. I have difficulty concerntrating. Tajwid..not flawless i must say. Meanings of the recitation..im trying my best to recall each meaning during each recitation.
All I can say is, im trying to be a better muslim. not the best but just better.
I do get caught up with duniawi stuff. But alhamdullilah, there are frens who remind me. Like seriously, friends are important! they are the people who define you. u cant choose yr family but u can choose your frens.
For each effort that we make, may He reward us with his bountiful rewards.
For each mistake we make, may He guide us back to the guided road. May He forgive us.
Come to tink of it, did i really try my best to be better?? hmmm.....
ok, not the first time i've been called ustazah. initially i thought ustazah is more of a female teacher who teaches Islamic Teachings. its not lorz..its teacher. ahaha!
aniwaes awat la panggil saya teacher ek. im far from that.
ok rites, the abovementioned wasnt my intended topic.
i wana talk about defining one as religious.
its difficult for me to define & personally i believe it takes more than juz a cert and appropriate manners (towards people) to define as religious.
its not defined by fulfilling 5 obligatory prayers. Prayers makes us muslim not religious (cited from a tweet). true enough.
One donning on hijab, is not necessarily someone who is religious as well. For a fact, im not even near that. i dun even noe if the way i don on it meets his standard. the obligatory prayers, I have difficult waking up for Subuh esp on weekends. I have difficulty concerntrating. Tajwid..not flawless i must say. Meanings of the recitation..im trying my best to recall each meaning during each recitation.
All I can say is, im trying to be a better muslim. not the best but just better.
I do get caught up with duniawi stuff. But alhamdullilah, there are frens who remind me. Like seriously, friends are important! they are the people who define you. u cant choose yr family but u can choose your frens.
For each effort that we make, may He reward us with his bountiful rewards.
For each mistake we make, may He guide us back to the guided road. May He forgive us.
Come to tink of it, did i really try my best to be better?? hmmm.....
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Low Tolerance Level
Bright lights. Ironically, I have low lighting tolerance level.
I tend to squint when it gets too bright (who doesnt la kan). I even have to decrease my handphone screen brightness.
Even when sholat (in my room or when I am praying alone), I prefer to do it in darkness.
Not total darkness all the time, just dim lights will do.
Well, not only my lactose level decreases, my lighting tolerance level has also dip low.
:) signs of aging??
I tend to squint when it gets too bright (who doesnt la kan). I even have to decrease my handphone screen brightness.
Even when sholat (in my room or when I am praying alone), I prefer to do it in darkness.
Not total darkness all the time, just dim lights will do.
Well, not only my lactose level decreases, my lighting tolerance level has also dip low.
:) signs of aging??
Monday, February 13, 2012
Finance Planning
Had the urge to drop by and blog but had no idea what do I wana write about today.
Look through my draft box and found this title with no content.
Muz be one of those many days that I found a topic to talk about but lost the mood to blog. heee!!
Look through my draft box and found this title with no content.
Muz be one of those many days that I found a topic to talk about but lost the mood to blog. heee!!
Now, me is no Financial Planner Guru. Neither am I a Financial Planner Student.
The other day, which was months ago, I attended a Finance & Retirement Plannng course. 2-days well informed course.
They even gave you a booklet on "How to choose your Financial Advisor". Which I will have to agree, you will need to have a connection with your advisor.Built a rapprt and importantly you must be comfortable sharing your finances information with him/her. Anws, yep I learnt alot in the course. And I am comfortable attending the course because the co. who conducted the course are not there to sell you any product. However, for a novice like me, be mentally prepared to experience what they call, Information Overloaded. :P
The other day, which was months ago, I attended a Finance & Retirement Plannng course. 2-days well informed course.
They even gave you a booklet on "How to choose your Financial Advisor". Which I will have to agree, you will need to have a connection with your advisor.Built a rapprt and importantly you must be comfortable sharing your finances information with him/her. Anws, yep I learnt alot in the course. And I am comfortable attending the course because the co. who conducted the course are not there to sell you any product. However, for a novice like me, be mentally prepared to experience what they call, Information Overloaded. :P
In that course, I have learnt the importance of having a spending amount (indulgence moment). I used to set aside for such indulgence. Subsequently, the amount decreases cause I no longer enjoy spending them. Now thats the weird part. During the course, I realized I didnt give the amount of money set aside a name. something that I can relate too. For example, $$ set aside for those gloomy days, etc.
So it was because of the name & no personal connection with it.
And so for that amount set aside for indulgence moment, it will be named "Wardrobe Malfunction Days".
So it was because of the name & no personal connection with it.
And so for that amount set aside for indulgence moment, it will be named "Wardrobe Malfunction Days".
=)
Finally, I love online shopping now! I see the purpose for it.
the simple connection I treasure.
the comfortable silence =)
i can sit all day in front of the TV with Tok Mat and not talking much.
exchanging words now & then. and fall back into silence again.
or hear him giving remarks abt how "gong gong, the football player is", etc
Just sitting at the couch, spenting the time together "not talking" but be physically and emotionally there for each other is what i valued most. No words could describe such moments.
With some other pple, silence freaks me out. but with my dad, its a special connection.
hmmm...somehw i sounded as if i am so into the dad (or a daddy's gal - im not. i juz love sticking to him like a leech at times, for the fun of it).
well, he's my dad, i love him but i love the connection we shared together more. Loves his crude remarks at times (times wen im not feeling emotional & when my mind works like a bullet train and it generates answers to his remarks - i feel superior! =P)
i can sit all day in front of the TV with Tok Mat and not talking much.
exchanging words now & then. and fall back into silence again.
or hear him giving remarks abt how "gong gong, the football player is", etc
Just sitting at the couch, spenting the time together "not talking" but be physically and emotionally there for each other is what i valued most. No words could describe such moments.
With some other pple, silence freaks me out. but with my dad, its a special connection.
hmmm...somehw i sounded as if i am so into the dad (or a daddy's gal - im not. i juz love sticking to him like a leech at times, for the fun of it).
well, he's my dad, i love him but i love the connection we shared together more. Loves his crude remarks at times (times wen im not feeling emotional & when my mind works like a bullet train and it generates answers to his remarks - i feel superior! =P)
Wardina Saffiyah
ok, another talk by Wardina Saffiyah (i cant seem to find the talk which i mentioned abt in my previous entry).
Listen to these youtube clips. May we get inspired through this. Amin!
Part 1:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HbZRSCpCCxs
Part 2 (30 secs vidz only)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cx5gEPSVjwU&feature=endscreen&NR=1
Part 3:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Wxd5p1IAOQ&feature=related
Listen to these youtube clips. May we get inspired through this. Amin!
Part 1:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HbZRSCpCCxs
Part 2 (30 secs vidz only)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cx5gEPSVjwU&feature=endscreen&NR=1
Part 3:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Wxd5p1IAOQ&feature=related
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Cinta yg berlandaskan nafsu
One of the worst love to own, is one that berlandaskan nafsu.
Nafsu for money..to have more than what you have now.
Something that will feed our so-called-wants momentary. but disastrous in the long run.
nafsu comes in all kinds of form.
i remember watching Wardina Safiyyah (a well-know TV presenter) talk on youtube.
its about cinta..or was it abt hijab. nevertheless she did mentioned "..klk seorg lelaki itu menyintai awk, dia tak akan sentuh awk. malah dia akan ajak awk bernikah dgn dia. jumpe ibu bapa awk.."
she said it with much conviction! and by the looks u can tell how much she stresses on how ladies should have self respect. =).
i shall provide the link on my later entry k. insyaAllah! follow her twitter (same name for her twitter a/c)
i tink she is one of the good motivators. Simple, beautiful talk. Not the nagging sort, she just loves to emphasise on her beliefs :)
something to share. a doa for those muslimah who are seeking for true love. and those who are not (yet), this doa is good too..invest on doa. to reap future gains :) insyaAllah!
*Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh cinta
Cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yg melabuhkan cintanya padaMu
Agar tambah kekuatanku untuk menyintaimu*
p/s: menambah kekuatan bukan bermaksud memaksa sang kekasih into doing good deed w/o her knowing the asas on it.
e.g menyuruh sang kekasih/ isteri utk sholat tahajjud, tetapi 1) no explaination given why is it supposed to be done. 2) apa bacaan nya (with meaning) (w/o understanding, whats the point of reciting it in arab. kluar dari mulut tapi bkn dari hati)
Note: again this is just a reminder to self.
no intention of hurting/ bringing anyone dwn.
Nafsu for money..to have more than what you have now.
Something that will feed our so-called-wants momentary. but disastrous in the long run.
nafsu comes in all kinds of form.
i remember watching Wardina Safiyyah (a well-know TV presenter) talk on youtube.
its about cinta..or was it abt hijab. nevertheless she did mentioned "..klk seorg lelaki itu menyintai awk, dia tak akan sentuh awk. malah dia akan ajak awk bernikah dgn dia. jumpe ibu bapa awk.."
she said it with much conviction! and by the looks u can tell how much she stresses on how ladies should have self respect. =).
i shall provide the link on my later entry k. insyaAllah! follow her twitter (same name for her twitter a/c)
i tink she is one of the good motivators. Simple, beautiful talk. Not the nagging sort, she just loves to emphasise on her beliefs :)
something to share. a doa for those muslimah who are seeking for true love. and those who are not (yet), this doa is good too..invest on doa. to reap future gains :) insyaAllah!
*Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh cinta
Cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yg melabuhkan cintanya padaMu
Agar tambah kekuatanku untuk menyintaimu*
p/s: menambah kekuatan bukan bermaksud memaksa sang kekasih into doing good deed w/o her knowing the asas on it.
e.g menyuruh sang kekasih/ isteri utk sholat tahajjud, tetapi 1) no explaination given why is it supposed to be done. 2) apa bacaan nya (with meaning) (w/o understanding, whats the point of reciting it in arab. kluar dari mulut tapi bkn dari hati)
Note: again this is just a reminder to self.
no intention of hurting/ bringing anyone dwn.
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Subjective Matters
Many things in our daily lives are subjective.
Fashion sense. Money worth. Food preference. Ur opinion abt others. Even behaviours.
what u deemed ugly, could be beautiful to another.
what u deemed worth 50cts, may worth millions to others.
what u tasted salty, others may feel its just nice.
do not implement what u feel (read: feel is right. unless its a stated rule (lawful in the eyes of Allah s.w.t. and lawful in the country) is right or worth it to others.
discussion about it, yes, its ok. but ultimately if the other party still has her own stand. deal with it with respect!
subjective matters are linked to our feelings (our emotion connection towards the subject) and feelings matters!
ok, so there.
today's entry may be subjective to some too.
some may agree with my opinion, some may not. Again, its subjective.
Just laying out my thoughts. =) toodles!
Fashion sense. Money worth. Food preference. Ur opinion abt others. Even behaviours.
what u deemed ugly, could be beautiful to another.
what u deemed worth 50cts, may worth millions to others.
what u tasted salty, others may feel its just nice.
do not implement what u feel (read: feel is right. unless its a stated rule (lawful in the eyes of Allah s.w.t. and lawful in the country) is right or worth it to others.
discussion about it, yes, its ok. but ultimately if the other party still has her own stand. deal with it with respect!
subjective matters are linked to our feelings (our emotion connection towards the subject) and feelings matters!
ok, so there.
today's entry may be subjective to some too.
some may agree with my opinion, some may not. Again, its subjective.
Just laying out my thoughts. =) toodles!
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Emotionally Distracted
was eager to pen dwn my thoughts on blog today.
but i was too emotionally distracted (read, its distracted not disturbed) till i have forgotten what was that I wanted to "talk" about.
yes, im still clueless. :S
but i was too emotionally distracted (read, its distracted not disturbed) till i have forgotten what was that I wanted to "talk" about.
yes, im still clueless. :S
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Hijab Woe
Salams there *grins*
hee..here i am suddenly blogging about hijab woe.
Actually yesterday I was half way thru typing out my hijab transition journey..boy it took me a whole hour to "pen it" dwn. ok, my bad..in the midst of blogging, i had numerous "commercial breaks". too many distractions. :P
Ritez, i will get back to it as soon as I have finished this one & my lunch. :) insyaAllah.
hee..here i am suddenly blogging about hijab woe.
Actually yesterday I was half way thru typing out my hijab transition journey..boy it took me a whole hour to "pen it" dwn. ok, my bad..in the midst of blogging, i had numerous "commercial breaks". too many distractions. :P
Ritez, i will get back to it as soon as I have finished this one & my lunch. :) insyaAllah.
This entry was supposed to be a short one. But i had some explanation (above) to do.
Not complaining just merely saying. and highlight that only a small portion of this entry is related to the title.
Ok, sshhh...stop explaining missy. Ritez.
There are many hijab-ers whose woe is "experiencing splitting headache" donning on the hijab.
Well, i tink its because of the "tension feeling" in the head. could be the scarve and/or the weather (yes man. it does la kan) which resulted to the headache.
Anws, my woe is not the head-ache..but my ear-ache. hee! itu je nak cakap. :P this time, i tink its the anak tudung and my way of donning the scarve. too tight i guess. hmmmm...
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
An unexpected Beautiful Journey
-raw & unedited. this was initially typed out the day before..but it was only 3/4 completed then.-
Its been a while since I've blog.
Tink i owe 2 important entries (on iman & my bandung trip).
Ok, i believe only 2 je lah. sounds like empty promises made. but I am the ikot-mood sort.
Me being me, now ikot mood. nak update on my hijab transition. =) yeay!
Alhamdullilah! Finally, me donning on the hijab and typing out an entry on it. say what? say yeay!!
Ok, i believe only 2 je lah. sounds like empty promises made. but I am the ikot-mood sort.
Me being me, now ikot mood. nak update on my hijab transition. =) yeay!
Alhamdullilah! Finally, me donning on the hijab and typing out an entry on it. say what? say yeay!!
Ok,serious stuff now.
Few weeks (months in fact) before donning on the hijab. alot of questions pops up in my mind.
I was asking a few of my close friends on their experience before and after donning on the hijab.
Their answers mostly were quite straight forward. Not that I dont value their explanation/ experience..but alot of thoughts went through my mind. Question like "am i ready for this", "what if I realized that I am not ready after i don on it?" and the most frequent pop-up qns is jeng jeng jeng.."what if my character/ behaviour doesnt reflects good on Islam"
MasyaAllah! May He frogives me for questioning myself alot for something that is wajib to be done more than a decade ago. I know its normal that we as humans we questions certain things in our life, but I too learn that just because its human nature,we shouldnt take things lightly. We still need to seek forgiveness from Him. No harm kan? ;)
ok, back to my story. I widen my "search for an answer" radius. Googled and googled. Watched YouTube on reverts to help me strenghten my iman too. (Had a convo with K'Erni - a close fren cum sister- abt reverts being more religious than us borned muslim. so I figured that I wanna feel the same way (or at least half) as they do. Watching YouTube helped. :) Alhamdullilah! I wont say that suddenly I turned into Hulk Hugan or Mighty Mouse..but it was a gradual growth in me. I felt that! (I will be lying if there are no parts that made me wanna skip/ fast forward. My attention span is pretty short. But there were many parts that touches the tiny meat/ muscle inside of me - the heart).
And I stumpled upon this blog (below is one of the entries which touches me)..which answered some of my doubts, etc. http://www.igotitcovered.org/2009/05/13/muslim-girl-my-inner-struggle-for-hijab/ .
After much persuasion, I was determined that I was ready to don on one. This happened in Dec. Told my parents about my intention. But who was I to kid. I "back-out" on the day that I assigned myself to. Reasons. I had reasons. Excuses one may say. Kita hanya mampu merancang, Allah yg menentukan. I wasnt ready deep dwn inside. :(
It saddens me actually coz I made my intention known to my parents (even gave the them the idea that i will don on tudung on our Bandung trip). Mcm disappoint em with my bad results. eeks!
So from then on, I decided to keep my intention low.But I continued reading entries from other muslimah.
It saddens me actually coz I made my intention known to my parents (even gave the them the idea that i will don on tudung on our Bandung trip). Mcm disappoint em with my bad results. eeks!
So from then on, I decided to keep my intention low.But I continued reading entries from other muslimah.
9 Jan 2012. The day when I told my coliqs and bosses that I will don on one..this time no given date. I merely say "sooner or later". On that particular day, I can say that I took an extra effort to dress up, wore a dress with leggings. its different from my everyday-gal-next-door- look. ok, compliments. received alot of compliments..even from the boss whom seldom compliments me. The compliments and "look" from people made me a little bit uneasy. A sudden urge to just cover up (at this pt it was just a mere tot of grabbing a cloth and wrap mysef like a dumpling). Few hours later, I just made up my mind that I will don on the tudung the next day. =) Not much persuasion needed to be done. Even the tot of "what if I had nothing nice to wear tmrw?" didnt even strike my mind. I was more thinking about "i need more pins, brooch!" heee...
MasyaAllah, kuasa Allah kan. Just like that and He made me made up my "nagging mind". tak yah susah2.
and syukur Alhamdullilah, 10 Jan 2012 was the first day I don on the hijab. and now, the current blog that i frequent wave hi to is http://www.hijab-scarf.com/
trendy pple donning on the hijabs. =)
Thats it on my transition. Thanks for letting me share my beautiful journey here. lengthy entry i know. somewat dry, i will try to add in more seasonings to my entries yar. ;)
For the hijab-ers (including myself) and the future hijab-ers, May the journey that we will be going thru be a smooth one. Amin! And may our objective of donning on one, be a sincere one (for Him) and meets His requirements as well.
Talking about His requirements, insyaAllah, i will blog in regards to it. To keep myself reminded & for the sake of all sisters including myself. Amin.
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Lets cut the trip short!
The power of Surah Kaffarah.
SubhanAllah! He gave us the surah to recite in order for us to wash away our sins after each meet-up/ classes that we attended.
Previously, below is the cycle that I had to went through. Almost Daily.
after meet-up --> guilt --> sleepless night --> drop in Imaan --> baby crawling moments to get closer to Him
Eversince I knew the meaning of the Surah (the message in it), syukur Alhamdullilah, the cycle was truly different.
SubhanAllah! He gave us the surah to recite in order for us to wash away our sins after each meet-up/ classes that we attended.
Previously, below is the cycle that I had to went through. Almost Daily.
after meet-up --> guilt --> sleepless night --> drop in Imaan --> baby crawling moments to get closer to Him
Eversince I knew the meaning of the Surah (the message in it), syukur Alhamdullilah, the cycle was truly different.
after meet-up --> recite surah kaffarah (reflecting back the happenings) --> guilt (and still reflecting back) --> but can sleep @ night and not much difference in Imaan strength.
Cool ah! The power of the Surah (a seriously good blessings for the ones who often get free flight to Guilt).
So there, lets cut the guilty trip short. Of coz, it doesnt applies to sins that are committed on a free will & intentional basis.
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