the youngest sis just texted me that another one of our hamster has died.
earlier this year, the most active hamster, Junior also passed away.
earlier this year, the most active hamster, Junior also passed away.
They were both 3yrs plus old.
came to realize that eversince Sabrina (the hamster that I adored/ love so much.) died, i no longer am attached to any other hamsters that we owned.
stroking her. playing with her. talking to her at night (maybe I did?).
the day that I wont forget is when we sent her to the vet, while waiting for our turn, she pooped on my hands. and her poo is green. she was critically ill then.
subconsciously, i have decided that i do not want to go through the feeling of lost.
the day she died, i was at work. lucky for me, that day i was seated at my coliq's seat. hence no one saw my tears.
adik brought Junior home soon after. and even asked me to named her.
come to think of it, i think adik thought that Junior might replace Sab. Maybe it did lessen adik's pain. but for me, i was adamant not to go thru this again.
subconsciously, i have decided that i do not want to go through the feeling of lost.
the day she died, i was at work. lucky for me, that day i was seated at my coliq's seat. hence no one saw my tears.
adik brought Junior home soon after. and even asked me to named her.
come to think of it, i think adik thought that Junior might replace Sab. Maybe it did lessen adik's pain. but for me, i was adamant not to go thru this again.
To my 2 lovely hamster (Junior and Hitam) whom I seldom spend time with. deep dwn inside I do love the both of you. I wished I had build an affection towards the both of you. but i wasnt ready then.
now, i do wonder if that was the best decision. coz instead of crying my hearts out of your departures now, i am feeling guilty.
now, i do wonder if that was the best decision. coz instead of crying my hearts out of your departures now, i am feeling guilty.
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